The Beginning...

The Beginning...

Sunday, February 27, 2011

From now on, I'll connect the dots my own way!

So the other day after eating some chicken wings I burped and I was able to re-live that last chicken for a one brief delicious moment. Then I thought, when birds burp it must taste like bugs.

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So it's been a while since I've blogged. I've been busier lately... but still broke. Not fair is it? I've finally paid off my credit card though! Two years ago it was over 10,000 and now it's gone. I feel like I've reached the end of the underground railroad and Canada is still freakin cold! Does that make sense? Who writes this stuff? He doesn't really know whats going on.
Ya, so I'm a therapist now. I'm an aknowledged member of the OACCPP which means I can legally do this stuff. I get to tell people what to do and they listen! I've mainly been dealing with relationship issues. I'd say marriage counsellor but not everyone who comes in wanting help is married. So as an intern, I get the people of the lower income demographic who can't afford the guy with the phD. Man, that guy make good money. 150 - 200 an hour? delicious! But i get more intrinisic rewards. I get to charge people next to nothing, see none of that money and get the fuzzies along with the worries. I'm pretty excited. I get my first aspergers patient soon. Thats going to be fun. There are several couples I work with, only one couple actually comes in as a couple though. With the others, one half feels its the other ones problem and they don't want any part of it. Anyone else see the problem already? And then there was a young boy who doesn't talk much and only comes because he has to. (As much as I want to give details, the consent form did not mention anything about spreading details about our session online in my blog.) I wasn't sure how to deal with this guy until I had a talk with another more experienced therapist yesterday. Gave me some interesting advice. Told me not to be just another authority figure. Therapy isn't just about asking questions and spilling your guts. Especially for kids it's important to be a friend and in doing so modeling appropriate social behaviour. He mention some specific examples of doing this that have worked well for other and then I remembered Calvin - From now on, I'll connect the dots my own way. I'm not going to be the psychiatrist type who just says sit down and tell me everything. I have no need to feel obliged to do this like anyone else has before me. It's going to be fun! Maybe everything is psychosomatic and everyone just needs lobotomies. I'll go buy a saw. I really like this job...... I just really wish it paid money along with experience! How cool would that be???

Monday, February 14, 2011

Valumtimes Day

SO this is something that Mr. Sollywood wrote many years ago (before we met) about Valumtimes Day:

"What an annoying holiday this is. No historical significance or religious, national or patriotic. Everyone runs around frothing, proclaiming their love and pledging their eternal allegiance to one another. It makes me sick. If someone truly cared about you, I think you'd hear it more often than once a year, presented with a heart shaped cardboard box filled with cheap chocolates made with oils and lard and a card picked up for $2.95. This will supposedly cover all wrongs and faults in the relationship with one fell swoop, leaving the giver allieved of all sins committed within the past year. I want someone to tell me if I'm loved of their own volition, not because some fabricated greeting card holiday sponsored by Hallmark compels them.
When was the last time you wanted someone to feel they are forcibly handing you a gift? How many out there feel like their relationship is doomed if they don't get that rose and box of chocolates for their significant other? Wow, what a pivotal moment in life this day is. I mean, everyone loves getting gifts. But it's getting a gift that really, really means something that touches the heart. More often than not, the gift that you get on this day of sick public displays of affection are nothing more than a little something to say you've upheld your end of the bargain and have fulfilled your duties.
Nothing says i love you like mass produced fabrication and unbridled conformity.
its bad enough Christmas has become so commercial but at least at its core it's something worth celebrating. I'm not getting into a Christmas origin thing here. its all good though. But valentines day is simply something mass marketed so that corporations can once again fill their coffers for that slump between Christmases.
So remember when you're sitting there with your supposed loved one over a nice candle lit dinner, holding that small stuffed bear that cost 20 dollars and the lives of countless China-men, that you're only there out of obligation to support and excuse the lack of affection and consideration throughout the rest of year. Pay your dues on February 14th so you can relax the rest of the year.
If you're going to give gifts, flowers and all that other junk then do it often and sincerely, not because you're told to do it on Valentines day.
this is the end of my valentines day rant. i'll be in my room with my guitar if you need me."

hahahah Which I completely agree with. You should demonstrate sincere and copious amounts of love to your significant other everyday. But can you sense the bitterness in there? In some ways, I'll have you know, he has changed his tune. For example today I had to work early this morning so I snuck out of bed to shower and not wake him. And he sleepily stumbles into the bathroom and opens the shower door and mumbles 'Happy Valentines Day my love', gives me a kiss and goes falls back into bed. No roses, no cheap chocolate and because he works tonight no candle lite dinner. But for him to be coherent enough in the morning to realise it is valentines day and to drag himself out of bed to wish me a happy one... well that is a valentines day miracle and the greatest demonstration of love he could have offered me.
So to my Mr. Sollywood 'Happy Valentines Day my love.' And to everyone else, I hope that you get love and appriciation everyday not just today.